What We Carry
Reflections on pain, meaning, and the way forward.
A new world opened at an awful cost: honest account of PTG
Post-traumatic growth after suicide loss is real and measurable, but it comes at a cost you would undo in a heartbeat. Both truths hold at once.
· 9 min read
March 24 was his suicide, May 25 was his passing
Naming two dates for a suicide and a passing tells the whole story, reduces stigma, and helps survivors hold both truths without letting either erase the other.
· 7 min read
I Lost My Purpose First: Grieving Before Anything New
Before you find new purpose after your child dies by suicide, name the purpose you already lost. Being their parent was the architecture of your life.
· 7 min read
I Lost My Dream and Found My Destiny
The dream was being a boy dad for a lifetime; the destiny is saving lives with what the loss taught. You grieve the dream before you carry the destiny.
· 7 min read
We prayed for healing until the word changed to peace
There is an exact moment when the prayer changes from healing to peace. That turn does not end hope; it reorders everything a grieving parent carries.
· 6 min read
The nine weeks nobody talks about
The stretch between the worst phone call and a celebration of life is a sacred, disorienting season no one prepares you for, but understanding it helps you survive.
· 9 min read
Post-traumatic growth is not closure
Real growth after trauma does not close the wound. It teaches you to carry the loss in a new way, and the data shows that joy and grief can share the same space.
· 7 min read
Finding a Way Forward After Losing a Child to Suicide
Post-traumatic growth is the research-backed process of rebuilding meaning after devastating loss, and this is how that path actually begins for a grieving parent.
· 2 min read