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What a near-death experience taught me about love

Neal Tricarico · · 7 min read

Jeffery Olsen's near-death experience after a crash that killed his wife and youngest son left him with one message: that we are held in unconditional love. For anyone grieving, that message turns grief and love into two names for the same bond, not two opposite feelings.

dawn light over a still horizon, on love continuing after loss - The Endurant Way

If someone went all the way to the other side and came back, what would they say grief is really about? Jeffery Olsen nearly died in a car accident that took his wife and youngest son, and the message he carried back from that place was not a warning or a secret. It was about love. He came back saying we are held in unconditional love, and once you sit with that, grief and love stop looking like opposites and start looking like the same thing.

Key Takeaways

  1. Jeffery Olsen's near-death experience left him with one message: we are held in unconditional love.
  2. Continuing-bonds research says the relationship with someone who died changes but does not end.
  3. Grief and love are not opposites; they are two names for the same bond.
  4. You do not need a near-death experience or any particular faith to feel a connection that holds.
  5. If grief ever feels unbearable, help is a single call or text away at 988.

TL;DR

Jeffery Olsen lost his wife and youngest son in a car accident and nearly died himself. The near-death experience that followed left him with a single message: we are held in unconditional love. For grieving people, that truth reframes grief not as the absence of love but as love continuing, and it opens the door to staying connected to the people we have lost.

What did the near-death experience reveal?

Jeffery Olsen was not looking for a spiritual experience. He was a husband and father on an ordinary drive with his family when the crash happened. He survived eighteen surgeries, including the amputation of a leg, and lost the two people who were closest to him. In the space where he nearly died, he described being met by a presence he could only call unconditional love. It was not love he had earned or had to ask for. It was simply there, holding him.

What strikes me about his telling is what he did not bring back. He did not come back with a complicated theology or a list of rules. He came back with the plainest sentence a person can carry: the love is real, and it does not stop. For someone who has just lost the person they love most, that is not a slogan. It is the difference between feeling abandoned and feeling held.

Why does Jeffery Olsen tie grief to love?

The reason grief hurts so much is that it is love with nowhere to go. That is not a hollow line. It is the exact pattern the research on continuing bonds describes. For decades the old model said the job of grieving was to let go, to cut the tie so you could move on. Now we know better Continuing Bonds Theory - Klass, Silverman, and Nickman. The relationship does not end when someone dies. It changes form.

When Olsen says he felt unconditional love on the other side, he is describing the same thing a bereaved parent feels when a sign arrives out of nowhere, or when a memory lands differently on an anniversary. The bond is still live. Grief is not the opposite of that love. Grief is the love running in a new current. I have written about this same ground before, that finding joy in grief is not a betrayal, and the two truths are one: the love does not shame you for feeling it.

What does unconditional love on the other side mean for the bereaved?

Here is the part that actually helps, and it is easy to miss because it sounds soft. If being held in unconditional love is the baseline, then you were never loved because you performed, or because you got it right, or because you were enough in the way the world measures enough. You were loved because that is what love does. And the people you lost were held in that same love, right now, whether you feel it or not.

That reframe matters to a grieving heart because grief whispers the opposite - and it whispers it loudly. Grief whispers that you failed them, that you did not say the right thing, that you were not there in time. Unconditional love answers that whisper by removing the conditions. There was nothing to earn. There is nothing you can lose that was ever dependent on your performance.

How do forgiveness and oneness fit in?

Olsen describes an experience of oneness, a sense that the separation we feel between ourselves and the people we love is not the deepest truth. That is hard for a rational person to hold, and I get that. I am not asking anyone to adopt a cosmology they do not share. What I am pointing at is the practical part: when you feel connected instead of cut off, forgiveness gets easier, including forgiving yourself.

A lot of bereaved parents carry guilt like a second, hidden grief. The oneness Olsen describes is a way of saying the tie was never broken in the first place, so there is nothing to repair by punishing yourself. The research on meaning reconstruction after loss points the same direction: healing is about rebuilding a world that makes sense, not about getting over the person Meaning Reconstruction and the Experience of Loss. Connection, not forgetting, is the through line.

What does it mean to find heaven in everyday moments?

If the love on the other side is real, then it is not locked away in the afterlife. It leaks through into ordinary days. A song on the radio. The way a certain light falls. A number you keep seeing. Olsen came back and chose joy, not in place of his grief but inside it, and that is the open secret of this whole path. For the people who are just starting on this road, the first honest thing I can tell you is that finding a way forward after suicide loss is built one small, repeated step at a time, and the love you still carry is part of what moves you.

I have written before that post-traumatic growth is not closure. It is learning to carry the weight differently. Finding heaven in everyday moments is the same move. It is letting the connection you still have be enough to live on, one small moment at a time.

Frequently Asked Questions

What is a near-death experience?

A near-death experience is a set of vivid - often life-changing - perceptions reported by some people who come close to death, frequently including feelings of peace, light, love, or a sense of leaving the body. Jeffery Olsen's account, shared widely in his books and talks, centers on an overwhelming feeling of unconditional love and oneness.

Is grief a form of love?

Many grief researchers and clinicians say yes. Under the continuing-bonds model, grief is understood as love continuing after the relationship changes form, not as a process of detaching Continuing Bonds - shifting the grief paradigm. The pain and the love share one root.

Does this require a particular religion?

No. You do not need any specific faith to find the practical core here: that love does not depend on performance, that the bond can continue, and that healing means connection rather than forgetting. Whether you call it spiritual or simply human, the relief is the same.

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If you are grieving and it feels like too much to carry, help is always reachable. Call or text 988 for free, confidential support, any time, day or night.